i am so scared.
And this is just the day i decide it has to end. Ive been nothing but burden.
I keep throwing up that my throat feels like it rejects me from breathing. I barely have any oxygen left in my head. I think i can pass out anytime by now.
But its not a lie.
I dont even know how to get through each night. I cant breathe. Its just that i am in this massive pain i could never describe.
bye-bye mr. cat, hopefully, you’ll find happiness in heaven 😭😭
I miss the cat already :( i really liked that cat. he was so nice. I met him first when he was still very much a baby. I knew his mother too. His mother still walking around my house too, but he left the baby. And then the cat is often wet (these past few months has been a rainy season) because he couldnt find shelter.
I tried to pick him up once tried to bring him inside my house, but he rejected and ran instead. He’s been living happily outside my door, playing with several other cats (which also babies). But he was happy. Its sad he died. The doctor said he got virus 😭😭😭
Im gonna try to vaccinate every cat in my house later. It feels so sad. I feel horrible.
This cat died today. I feel so sad.
“Isnt it lonely? Its like shes fighting an endless battle all by herself with her life on the line.”
I really feel angry today
I made another tumblr account several months ago, its titled a grateful journey with address i dont need christmas to be happy.
I thought i had to create another platform to write. To tell just about my happiness. But today i deleted that account.
I realize, my un-happiness, is also a part of me.
i dont want to go outside.
i feel so hurt. i feel totally in pain. i feel horrible. i feel awful. i cant breathe.
i just feel so sad.